This is goodbye from the TRazor.
I started this blog about a year and a half ago. I had various reasons for creating trzr23, ranging from improving my writing to creating a creative outlet to simply killing time. And at this point, it doesn't really matter. I started writing like a fanboy, like a gushing 12 year old, with nothing but energy to write about foreign cartoons. It was a form of escapism, just like anime in itself was; a hobby, if anything. What glorious days those were, when waking up to find one extra person (from Germany, no less!) had visited my little corner of the internet. And so trzr23 grew, adding along the way Moonlight, Dionysis, GoodEnoughForMe and Amperox. Almost all of them left, except for Moon who stayed all the way because she's awesome like that, and now it's time for me to pack my bags too.
This wasn't a sudden decision by any means. I knew a while ago that I was done here. In the beginning, I was fired up about how I would be blogging for centuries to come, but somewhere along the line, I realized that this was always going to be just an experience - a splash, if I may. As fun as it was, it was taxing. Aniblogging wasn't merely pumping out a couple of posts a week. No, it was more than that - it was being part of a community. Call it what you want, a circle-jerk, a sphere-jerk, your momma's jerk whatever. But there's no taking away that in this tiny blot on the 'net, there was a potpurri of voices tucked in neatly under Wordpress and Twitter. The aniblogosphere always has been a quirky, yet warm place, a place where most of us belong, for here, not liking Mushishi is more absurd than owning a body pillow of a high-school 2D girl. I'll always regret not jumping into one of those Skype-watches, but I was having plenty fun scouring through Nano and unearthing some fantastic blog posts. It's a fun little place that we could log-into and we could roam about with our online personas, reading pretentious analyses and sharing a few laughs on Twitter. Aye, it was a nice splash indeed.
But aniblogging also flattered my ego, skewing my vision of anime. I used to blog about anime because I loved watching it, however this perspective turned on its head as time passed by and there were times I were watching shows just so I could write something witty about them. While watching an episode, I would be thinking "heh, gotta tweet this!" or "need to mention this in post" and in effect denying myself the full experience of watching the anime. Aniblogging made me think my opinions mattered and that fueled me to watch anime not to enjoy them, but to write about them. And this is selfish, yes, but anime comes over blogging for me. If I needed to stop writing to start enjoying, then so be it, for I would do anything to get the void in my heart carved out by an anime. I don't think I would've ever enjoyed After Story if I had watched it while being an active blogger, dismissing it as "moe pandering with a diabetically sweet female protag". This was why I couldn't even complete my own project - I couldn't rewatch my favorites without constantly thinking of what to write about it. I'd rather be a part of the Lowest Common Denominator and enjoy what's on my screen instead of looking at most shows as mindless drivel. Just gotta turn of the cynic, sit back, relax and let the anime whisk you away.
I've also got no demonic time-management skills, so this whole aniblogging shebang occupied a couple of hours every night, for over 18 months straight. That's a pretty big deal. It never really hit home until my Dad told me that I was dinged up in front of the computer, when I should be out enjoying myself as only a 19 year old can. As enjoyable as interacting with y'all is, it's still a fraction of the rollicking fun of talkin and doing crazy shit with friends. In short, I got a life outside this and I want to live it to its fullest, without sacrificing too much sleep. It was only after a deep conversation with my friend a while ago did I realize how much I've been missing out on, being addicted to anime and blogging. If not the former, at least the latter had to go. Poking fun at each other during hangouts with friends are infinitely more satisfying than reading a complimentary blog comment. I guess that's just how it is for me.
Most of you must've caught on to this, but I wrote with a gimmick called the TRazor. Earlier on, it was nothing but a mishmash of the heel Rock and Naruto, but over time, I toned it down a bit to make it sound a little more...bearable. It was fun, writing as the TRazor, the obnoxious prat who would say stupid stuff, write even stupider shit and try to be creative and funny. In real life, I'm a much more calm and much more well-informed person, careful with words and wary of conflict. So, will I come back to blogging one day? Maybe one day I will resurface, if not as the TRazor, but with some other persona. But who know what I'll be doing then, when I don't even know what I'll be doing tomorrow...
To all those did take some time out and read this blog, thank you. I appreciate your readership. I know that many of you might've had a problem with some of the things that I've said, so I apologize I need to apologize for. I can't think of all the people I want to thank for reading and commenting on this blog, because I don't want to miss anyone out. There are so many friends I made online, here in the 'sphere, so many interesting people from so many walks of life. It was surreal when I stopped and thought about it: here I am, sitting and talking about Japanese cartoons and cultures and all sorts of things to these people who live across the world. Nothing short of amazing, I'll tell you that. But out of all of them, I owe so much to Moonlight for sticking with everything through to the end - easily the best friend I made on here. Thanks, from Kyon ;)
Well, I guess that's about all I wanted to cover...yeah.
I sure am gonna miss this place.
Ciao and peace
trzr23 out.
I started this blog about a year and a half ago. I had various reasons for creating trzr23, ranging from improving my writing to creating a creative outlet to simply killing time. And at this point, it doesn't really matter. I started writing like a fanboy, like a gushing 12 year old, with nothing but energy to write about foreign cartoons. It was a form of escapism, just like anime in itself was; a hobby, if anything. What glorious days those were, when waking up to find one extra person (from Germany, no less!) had visited my little corner of the internet. And so trzr23 grew, adding along the way Moonlight, Dionysis, GoodEnoughForMe and Amperox. Almost all of them left, except for Moon who stayed all the way because she's awesome like that, and now it's time for me to pack my bags too.
This wasn't a sudden decision by any means. I knew a while ago that I was done here. In the beginning, I was fired up about how I would be blogging for centuries to come, but somewhere along the line, I realized that this was always going to be just an experience - a splash, if I may. As fun as it was, it was taxing. Aniblogging wasn't merely pumping out a couple of posts a week. No, it was more than that - it was being part of a community. Call it what you want, a circle-jerk, a sphere-jerk, your momma's jerk whatever. But there's no taking away that in this tiny blot on the 'net, there was a potpurri of voices tucked in neatly under Wordpress and Twitter. The aniblogosphere always has been a quirky, yet warm place, a place where most of us belong, for here, not liking Mushishi is more absurd than owning a body pillow of a high-school 2D girl. I'll always regret not jumping into one of those Skype-watches, but I was having plenty fun scouring through Nano and unearthing some fantastic blog posts. It's a fun little place that we could log-into and we could roam about with our online personas, reading pretentious analyses and sharing a few laughs on Twitter. Aye, it was a nice splash indeed.
But aniblogging also flattered my ego, skewing my vision of anime. I used to blog about anime because I loved watching it, however this perspective turned on its head as time passed by and there were times I were watching shows just so I could write something witty about them. While watching an episode, I would be thinking "heh, gotta tweet this!" or "need to mention this in post" and in effect denying myself the full experience of watching the anime. Aniblogging made me think my opinions mattered and that fueled me to watch anime not to enjoy them, but to write about them. And this is selfish, yes, but anime comes over blogging for me. If I needed to stop writing to start enjoying, then so be it, for I would do anything to get the void in my heart carved out by an anime. I don't think I would've ever enjoyed After Story if I had watched it while being an active blogger, dismissing it as "moe pandering with a diabetically sweet female protag". This was why I couldn't even complete my own project - I couldn't rewatch my favorites without constantly thinking of what to write about it. I'd rather be a part of the Lowest Common Denominator and enjoy what's on my screen instead of looking at most shows as mindless drivel. Just gotta turn of the cynic, sit back, relax and let the anime whisk you away.
I've also got no demonic time-management skills, so this whole aniblogging shebang occupied a couple of hours every night, for over 18 months straight. That's a pretty big deal. It never really hit home until my Dad told me that I was dinged up in front of the computer, when I should be out enjoying myself as only a 19 year old can. As enjoyable as interacting with y'all is, it's still a fraction of the rollicking fun of talkin and doing crazy shit with friends. In short, I got a life outside this and I want to live it to its fullest, without sacrificing too much sleep. It was only after a deep conversation with my friend a while ago did I realize how much I've been missing out on, being addicted to anime and blogging. If not the former, at least the latter had to go. Poking fun at each other during hangouts with friends are infinitely more satisfying than reading a complimentary blog comment. I guess that's just how it is for me.
Most of you must've caught on to this, but I wrote with a gimmick called the TRazor. Earlier on, it was nothing but a mishmash of the heel Rock and Naruto, but over time, I toned it down a bit to make it sound a little more...bearable. It was fun, writing as the TRazor, the obnoxious prat who would say stupid stuff, write even stupider shit and try to be creative and funny. In real life, I'm a much more calm and much more well-informed person, careful with words and wary of conflict. So, will I come back to blogging one day? Maybe one day I will resurface, if not as the TRazor, but with some other persona. But who know what I'll be doing then, when I don't even know what I'll be doing tomorrow...
To all those did take some time out and read this blog, thank you. I appreciate your readership. I know that many of you might've had a problem with some of the things that I've said, so I apologize I need to apologize for. I can't think of all the people I want to thank for reading and commenting on this blog, because I don't want to miss anyone out. There are so many friends I made online, here in the 'sphere, so many interesting people from so many walks of life. It was surreal when I stopped and thought about it: here I am, sitting and talking about Japanese cartoons and cultures and all sorts of things to these people who live across the world. Nothing short of amazing, I'll tell you that. But out of all of them, I owe so much to Moonlight for sticking with everything through to the end - easily the best friend I made on here. Thanks, from Kyon ;)
Well, I guess that's about all I wanted to cover...yeah.
I sure am gonna miss this place.
Ciao and peace
trzr23 out.
